♥ yimei

I wish you would realise, that you always make my day. ♥

5AM. Best lah, later test how?!
Hopefully everything will go well..:/
你在那里，
吃得好， 睡得好，
开心吗？
想起我的时候，不要哭 。。
我就在这里等着你。 ：）

With me, You are never alone.

You,
are the one who made valentine's a special day to look forward to,
are the one who made the presents received special,
are the one who came into my life, and made everything feel so right.
I'm holding on to you, no matter what.
I treasure the moments and presents, but above all of them,
You are the one i treasure most.

"Dear oh, you like this photo more because your eyes on the other photo one big one small right!"
No. I love them all. These photos are not just for showcase on facebook. They have shown the very moment, when you were in my arms, and how you brought out my smile, with all my worries and unhappiness of my life placed behind. With you in my arms, the fear of losing you gets stronger day by day. I have come to the point where I no longer know what life would be like without you. My mum just had a talk with me. "Son, what had happened to you? Look at yourself now, walking with almost a half dead body. You are already a working adult, for goodness sake. What happened to the times when you were laughing at how your friends stupidly committed to their girls? Letting it happen to you now? About time for you to remember that you actually still have parents right here. And if you are planning to take her as a future wife, my advice to you to take careful consideration about her background, for your own good. Are you good enough to gain the agreement of her parents? 我只有你这个儿子，make sure, that you don't have regrets."
And here i am now, the one whose life have always been envied by others , not knowing what had happen to me. Work, another screwed up part of my life. The strange thing when i think back to the time when i got my O's result. No dreams, no goals. After how my life was screwed up, all i knew that time was to struggle, as an only child, with my parents as my responsibility. I can't afford to choose a course which can't get me a job with just a diploma.
Turned out, Engineering course was quite tough for me, with all the stress i faced, trying to pass all the subjects, when i know balls about them. Choosing aerospace as my course for polytechnic, which my parents thought was "a course with good future prospects", now resulting with a job that i work for without passion everyday, struggling just for the sake of the digits to keep myself alive everyday. Being a only child isn't easy eh? Hahaa..
Back to the time my friends came to my house during CNY eve.
"Wa eh bro, how long no meet up le. What happen to Mr. no commitment?"
"I guess.. thats love."
I know that I'm not alone. Behind your smiles, the bad experiences from your past, the worries of your current family, and your future studies. All i know is, I want to give you my everything, for your happiness. And at the same time moving on so that i won't end up being a problem for my parents. Stopping is not an option for me. Not sure if I'm up to it, but its all I'm struggling for, with my very best, for now.
Because it means everything to me.

I used to be the same,
Thinking that the world out there is crazy,
Always afraid to grow up,
Always feeling that I'm not ready for the outside world,
Wanting to continue being dependent on my parents like a kid,
Because i tend to have the habit to tell myself that reality isn't easy.
There are also times when my job starts breaking me down,
Surviving out there isn't simple,
But i know i have to.
Because from the crazy world out there,
I found you.
Even in love, marriage doesn't happens like fairytales,
It comes with great commitment and responsibility,
When the day comes and you say "yes",
I will be ready, telling you that we would face all of it out there, together.
If its about growing up, for me, it will start now.
Because of you,I'm not afraid,
Not anymore.

"我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑"
Because dear,
To me,
Your smile is priceless.
It just feels like i would want do anything, for your smile.
And i need you by my side every moment.
What have you done to me? D: 中你的毒了！
如果有一天， 大家都不理你的时候，
就算是只有我，
我也要成为在你身边,支持你的人。

To me, you already are perfect. :)

Soon,
Till it marks us being together for one month,
It may be three simple words,
Which you may have heard again and again through this one month,
But still,
I wanna say,
I love you.
Not for what you are, But who you are,
And you are the best of everything thats ever been mine.
Happy 1 month anniversary babe. <3

"To get the full value of joy, you must have someone to divide it with"
You are able to lighten up my world with just your smile.
Looking at you starting to embrace your future,
I'm so happy, and proud of you.
I know, there are times with you when i thought, "If only time could stop", but somehow we still have to move on to the future. To the future, hand in hand, no matter how it ends, no matter how it starts.
I will never regret you, because once upon a time, you are exactly what i needed.

Problems all around you,
Its a torture for me,
Seeing you fall, Seeing you torture yourself,
Sometimes i hope that there's something i could do for you,
And when i realize there's nothing much i can do,
I will start feeling helpless, useless.
But,
I can't afford to whine,
Never to you,
Cos' I know i will never want to be another source of your pain.
I must be stronger.
So babe,
You must be strong too,
I believe one day you will return to your original self, smiling with confidence.
Don't be afraid, cos' i will watch you shine at your best, and will be by your side at your worst.

Yesterday, i hear you talk about him,
Saying how silly you felt thinking back of those times with him,
Then i think back of the me i used to be,
The me who was scared of caring,
For fear that the other person doesn't care at all,
But now,
I understand.
Yeah its you, who made me understand,
Because, its love.
Its when, something which seemed so wrong,
Is able to feel so right.
How silly will love make us be?
Cos' you've made my 2010 amazing, and now i believe, 2011 would be too :)